For you my dear son
For three months to the day
Since October the eighth
I feel I live in a daze
Here I am sitting besides my favorite photos of you
One of you when you gave Dai away on her wedding day
and one when you were just two.
I am still trying to accept the decision God made.
I drive myself crazy for a hint or a clue
of why God decided to take you so soon
and why He did not give me the precious last moments
to be there with you To hold and to comfort
and to bid you farewell
but what God decides no one can foretell
I was blessed to have seen you in a dream;
But as they say a dream is only a dream.
My heart is so broken;
I don’t think it will ever heal.
I know you may not want me to be so sad all the time’
But i cant help what I feel
I hope that what everyone tells me is true
That we will all be together again some day
For right now I want it to be soon
All I want is to see you again
and hug you and kiss your beautiful face
in the meantime,
I pray you are happy my dear,
darling son and full of God’s grace.
Thanks again for all those who try to console me and have sent me notes of sympathy. We are eternally grateful!