It has now been two months since the passing of my son. It is getting a little bit easier to tolerate the hurt but still hard to accept the reality of his passing. David Walden on Instagram writes very soothing posts. He reads poetry and talks about life in general. His poignant style of speaking helps me a lot. He is the son of a friend of my daughter and when he found out about our loss he posted a message that warmed my heart.
It is with enormous pleasure that I introduce to you his musical album which can be found on all the streaming media sources. Please check it out. I promise you will enjoy every minute.
I want to thank him from the bottom of my heart. He doesn’t realize how much his words have touched my very soul.
It has been now 28 days since my son’s passing. I find myself searching for peace of mind. Mourning is very complicated especially when you are mourning the death of a son. I know deep in my heart that he has finally found peace and that comforts me. I know he is no longer in physical pain.
I have often said that Poetry is life; Life is Poetry. I find myself digging up poems I had written about and to my children. I spend hours looking through old photographs that can be translated into poems. I search for peace within the collections of poetry that gave me comfort and peace of mind; poetry that inspired me to write my own poems.
I came across some poetry and thoughts by Khalil Gibran – Lebanese Poet and Philosopher. Please listen to A Tear and a Smile. I hope this brings peace to those of you who may need peace of mind right now.
I have not posted any new poems lately. We were away with our son who became very ill. He is now in the heaven he believed in so much. We miss him so much. The poem below is dedicated to him. It is the first full poem that I have been able to sit and write since he passed away. I often wrote poems for my children but never read the poems to them. I do not know why. But I hope that he hears me reading this one. I want all of you to know not to make that mistake; I mean to wait to say anything loving and meaningful to your loved one especially your children. Thanks for your continued support.
I return to writing my poems with deep sadness in my heart
I never dreamed we’d be this very far apart;
Unable to see you anymore
and hold you close like I did before.
As destiny would have it
we lived a distance from each other;
but not as far away as now.
I would have liked for you to live closer
but life took you elsewhere to fulfill your dreams.
and to find your life’s purpose.
Losing one of my children was always one of my greatest fears
a parent should be the one to go firstt
and children should be left with the tears.
Distance made it hard for us to share
so many things with you right in the moment.
So I would whisper my Blessings and
silently pray for God to keep you well.
but only time would really tell.
what destiny had in mind.
So I’d send you virtual hugs by the dozen
and millions of kisses as well
Cause just one kiss at a time
would never be enough.
To show you just how much
You were missed and loved.
Now your dad and I must wait until
Our dying day
To see you again in heaven.
In the meantime,
I hope you can feel when hugs and kisses come your way.
even though you are no longer here and so very far away.
I wish our Prayers for your survival had been answered;
As we believed so deeply in our pleas
to the Greatest Force there is;
but, as you always would say to me;
Mom, “It is what it is.”
Well, that does not bring me much comfort now, dear son;
This is a video I made this morning. I will appreciate it if you join in prayer for all those afflicted with Cancer or any other illness. Thanks for your cooperation and expressions of love and friendship in the past.
It has been a while since my last post. Family illness and life consumed most of my time. I hope to get back into the rhythm of writing poems and painting which are the two things I love the most. I did keep a journal where I jotted my deep thoughts, some short poems, and quips and quotes I come across. Today I want to share a poem I wrote recently.